Heeeeellllllooooooo.

so today is Christmas eve.
and tomorrow is Christmas day!

i really dont care i work 3 to 11 tonight
just cuz i cant be down this time of year.


i really hope and pray ALL of you
will enjoy the holidays.
and ill do the same haha


-Toph.

Duhhhhh..

so have you ever done something then after you think about it
and you realized you messed up or shouldnt have done what you did?

time to time it happens im sure to you.
but for some reason it happens to me more then time to time.

me controlling whats on my mind is difficult i guess.
i think i have everything bottled up inside or me i jus needa get it out.
so here i am blogging.



i dont know what the deal is with me and women but it doesnt work out the
way i think it should work out.
i think i set my expectations too high to where if it doesnt reach it i
take it the wrong way.

then i take it down on myself.
all i want is to take everything i did wrong back.
but i cant cuz what is said is done.
and all i can do now is change what i do and say.


i realize i blog to get things off my chest.
tho i can jus tell somebody for me its like if i do tell somebody
they would really get what im saying at the time.
or something like that.

but when i blog its like i dont need a reaction or response right away.
but i do get out what i need too.


when it comes to realizing things for me its too late.
i needa think more with my heart then my mind.
thats why they say follow you're heart.




on a brighter note...

i was off the last few days and its been nice.
ive been hanging out with good company and getting my mind off
of whats going out in the world and work.

and to top everything off Christmas is just a few days away.
and its my my favorite cuz i see more of my family. <3


and in the back of my mind i wish she was still there.
but its ok cuz i still have her where it counts.
shes still my friend and i gotta get used to it.
i love you all and hope you have a merry christmas.

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3


-Toph.

Trying to handle the truth.

so for the few weeks ive been everywhere.
physically and emotionally.

for those of you who didnt know
one of my good friends passed away from Coccidioidomycosis aka Valley fever.
its pretty much a fungus that attacks your lungs

and hes been fighting it for about 2 months at UCLA medical center.
he is prolly one the strongest people i know.
him fighting that for that long was amazing.
but things happen for a reason God needed him.

Rest in Paradise Bingham Star Kaleopa.
April 13, 1992- December 11, 2009
forever you'll be missed and forever you'll be loved.
see you soon man!
<3

hearts bruised.

not a broken heart but bruised but my friends iced it up.
if it wasn't for them id be on rock bottom.

my shit wasnt crackn today but at the end my friends were there.
i love my friends.


im gunna miss her and thats without a doubt.
cuz she means alot. but it does make sense what
happen. and i toast to that.

tho it hurts inside, God heals.
had a rough one. but now i shaved and its smoothed out.

anyways thanks for ice; doctors (friends)

-Toph.

let it rain.

So its a monday and it rained.
i usually dislike the rain but my car needs to be cleaned
and today was a lazy day for me so i stayed home and yeah.

stayed under 2 blankets wore some
sweats and a sweater. seriously it couldnt get any better.
felt so nice. haha
i havent done that in awhile.

i got bored so i tried to work out a little.
which im shocked cuz i actually did. haha knowing how lazy i am i
would took a nap. so anyways i hopped on the ab lounge and perfect pushup.
also used those resistance bands which got me sore. haha

then around 5ish my brother calls me and ask if i wanna go rock climb.
and again i usually would turn in down. and stay home but i went since im in a
working mood. then cj and jessica was there too. i can honestly say i would wanna
get a month pass so i can climb more. but yeah

anyways good day for me
and i blogged for the 2nd consecutive day.


well that is all

later dayz.

- Toph.

So This Girl...

So this girl..
i dont know but if you ask me shes one
of this girls who can turn your day from being
completely horrible to amazing and making you smile non stop.

shes one of thise girls who you can call when you had
a rough day at work.

shes one of those girls who you'd die for
or even spend every penny just to get what she wanted.

where all you can think of is all the good things you spend together
and not knowing anything is happening except for that moment
where nothing around you cant mess anything up where everything jus stops
and all i see is her and all i wanna see is her.

she make me a better person to the point
where it makes me sick.

all i want to do is to hold her hand and to never let her go.
even if i dont see her for 2 weeks it makes it THAT much better when i do.

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she doesnt give me butterflies in my stomach its more
of a tarradactyl typa thing.
its way better then those summer flings.

she makes me smile til my cheeks get sore.
got me me hot like the inner core.

i can honestly say that tho there is more fish in the sea.
but i also know that they cant feel this good when shes with me.

shes my fire shes my rain.
you know what they say, " no pain no gain"

she incredible. shes my Violet.
shes the New Moon shes the planet.


shes THAT girl til thee end.
whose this gir you ask? shes my girlfriend.

Pia Mafnas.



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just went on whats been on my mind.
just say 500 days of summer and it just made me think thats all.


but anyways im back.
alots happen since my last post in like Aug. haha
as you know i have a girlfriend now.
and me any my friends are closer then ever.
life is good.

well more post to come.
so in the mean time later days.

-Toph.


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Finna.

Dang so as you can see i havent been on this bitch fo' a minute.
and now im back.


anywho.

wussssup girrrl.

anyways since fathers day alot has happened.

- new flash for thee girlfriend (my camera)
- laptop
- school
- and more.

and yeah well starting now when i have time
cuz all i do it work and work and school if i can get into a class!

haha ok well thats all for now.

Goodnight.